sino ang pipiliin mo?

[appleblossomgirl]

thank you sa mga responses nyo. i am really weighing things over.. and true enough na naiisip ko rin, baka mas ok pa na mag isa na lng ako at kalimutan ko sila pareho.. when i said that to the guy who i think loves me more, he cried too much.. parang baka makaiyak... at parang dinudurog naman un puso ko makakita ng lalaki na umiyak ng ganun, dahil sa takot nya na mawala ako sa knya.. yesterday, he had to leave kasi un work nya sa desert, so 2 weeks xa dun then 2 weeks vacation.. he cried again nun paalis na xa, pero ako hindi maxadong umiyak.. same day.. nun kinagabihan.. tumawag un first guy sa kin.. saying na h needs my help pero prng nakalimutan ko na xa.. then he said he never cried in his life.. pero that night, he cried.. and nun marinig ko na umiiyak xa.. ako naman ang umiyak na parang baka..
niloloko ko ba ang sarili ko? my brain is telling me na piliin ko un isa kasi mas mahal nya ako.. and he introduced me to his family as the girl he loves, and he has plans for us, to get married, to be together..
but my heart is longing for the other guy who made me cry, but also made me happy in some ways, who never promised a future with me, kasi what he promised was to be with me until he finds a girl to marry ( ibang nationality kasi and sa culture nila, dapat kalahi nila ang mapangasawa... although, un isa.. kalahi din nila, pero he fought for me, for his familiy, and insisted na he would give up his nationality just to be with me...)

jukinang pagibig to. di ko alam katangahan na ata ang pinapagana ko.. 

[renegade_master]

da best nga ata na humanap kna iba, kasi pag pinili mo yung isa ay sasaktan ka lang lagi pero dun naman sa isa ay baka mabore ka at magsawa sa sobrang kabaitan.. based on experience ko nun ay sobra bait ko tapos inayawan ako girl kasi boring daw at wala man lang challenge. kaya medyo maginoo na ko na medyo bastos.. hahahaha 

[appleblossomgirl]

da best nga ata na humanap kna iba, kasi pag pinili mo yung isa ay sasaktan ka lang lagi pero dun naman sa isa ay baka mabore ka at magsawa sa sobrang kabaitan.. based on experience ko nun ay sobra bait ko tapos inayawan ako girl kasi boring daw at wala man lang challenge. kaya medyo maginoo na ko na medyo bastos.. hahahaha 

haha!  natawa naman ako sau..maginoo na medyo bastos.. un mabait na guy, i cannot say naman na boring xa.. yun mga gusto ko namn gwin gingwa namin  like hiking, punta sa ibat ibang beach, visit sa ibat ibang countries.. tas mas may pera pa xa    hahha! pero di ko maintindihan tlga..bakit hinahanap ko un una... is it because i cannot simply let go of the memories? is it just about the memories o is it really because of him?

[iceprince]

Hi ms. apple...

IMO, I will agree with sir bigfatpussycat...

Why... Mainly because all that is happening right now is confusing you of your own goals...

Is choosing between them your number 1 priority...

If so, then choose wisely... If not, then leave the both of them and find the peace within yourself...

Maybe, you are hesitant because your condition right now is better than your previous setting with the other one...

But, are you really concentrated on the two of them... Thinking that they could be your destiny...

There are more men out there than the two that you have told us... You might just haven't met what is meant for you...
 

[5y5t3m_cr45h]

choosing is really very hard thing to do naman talaga.. lalo na if your choosing between the one you loved once kasi magiging bias ka... and forgetting someone who becomes a part of you is also so hard to do... di naman dahil sa memories you two made and shared but because kung naging ano ka because of that someone... siguro the best thing to do right now... "dont choose" kasi first of all magiging unfair ka kung pipiliin mo ung second guy... youll be comparing him to your first and lastly sasaktan mo lang sarili mo kasi alam mo na mahal mo pa ung past mo...

[razorsharp]

ewan ko kung baket pero maraming babaeng mahilig sa sadista hehehe. kahit maraming sampal ang abutin kakapit pa rin. meron naman halos ibigay na ni lalake ang langit, sunud-sunuran sa lahat pero ayaw ni babae. boring daw. 

asan na ba yung ginagamit ng kapitbahay namin sa sinakulo noon....

[bigfatpussycat]

nestle ikaw ba yan           

[chazer]

musta na po ang feelings mo ngaun?  i hope we have shed some light to your situation.  and we thank you for letting us share our thoughts for you.  i pray that @appleblossomgirl you have reached your prompt decision already.

[appleblossomgirl]

musta na po ang feelings mo ngaun?  i hope we have shed some light to your situation.  and we thank you for letting us share our thoughts for you.  i pray that @appleblossomgirl you have reached your prompt decision already.

i chose no one. si guy 2, nun sinabi ko sa knya na wag na xa umasa kasi i decided to be just alone nlng, or well, ayaw ko na ng commitments, nagalit xa, depressed, stalked me, even told me that he will marry me that month, ipapahanda na daw nya sa parents nya un dowry for me (amounting to 1M pesos! at ikinagulat ko yon). he willingly gave me his atm card and his bank account, oferred me a brand new car.... pero hindi pala talaga sukatan ang materyal na bagay.. i thought i will be happy with him pero something is missing..and ayaw ko naman na pumasok nlng basta sa relationship na feeling ko may kulang.. nakakahinayang lahat ng inoffer nya sa kin hahha! pero ganun talaga..
si guy 1 naman, we remained friends. kung wala kaming relasyon hindi ako masasaktan (palagay ko) so ganun nlng... I cannot just cut my ties with him kasi im friends with almost all his brothers and sisters..

complicated. pero im ok na... thanks guys!

[uchiha_nejer]

glad to hear ok na

mahirap talaga pumili kasi lahat may risk. posible rin na naman na si guy no. 2, in the long run, pag naging kayo, will become guy no. 1, and guy no.1 will come to his senses and become guy no.2. so paikot ikot lang

lahat ng desisyon mo may risk. hindi pedeng sureball hehe. kaya nga masarap mabuhay, exciting, kasi di mo alam ano meron bukas

[karaso]

buti na lng binasa ko hanggang sa huling post as of this writing. akala ko gagawa ako ng 'formal theme' titled "Puso o Pera, Alin sa Dalawa?" o kaya naman "It's Not You, It's Me...Ano ba Talaga Kuya!"

IMO its fair naman wla ka munang pinili sa kanila, allowing time to really tell what are your top priorities today. Di sa pagyayabang I already experienced both roles as yong pinaka mabait na guy sa balat ng mundo then twisted my principles after (bad boy) after someone broke my heart. Kaya lng honestly, d ako masaya kasi dami nagbago sa akin at di ko halos makita ang totoong ako and I feel useless. Lesson learned, Time may not heal everything but Time will guide your decisions at the right time. Wag muna ask when is the right time, malalaman mo lng kung yon na di mo inexpect.

Tingin ko lng @appleblossomgirl baka nga di mo alam ang priorities mo today kaya nahirapan ka mag decide. Enjoy muna moments sa life mo kung ano darating, ika nga take calculated risk and go with the flow kung ano magpapasaya sau.

Pero curios ako, pwd mo hindi sagutin - what it is with the 1st guy that you're so attach with him? Prang old skul na tanong ng  Pop Cola na 'bakit mo xa love?' Is it always tama ang timpla or mas challenging kasi may extra effot na pra makuha ang tamang timpla? 

[iceprince]

buti na lng binasa ko hanggang sa huling post as of this writing. akala ko gagawa ako ng 'formal theme' titled "Puso o Pera, Alin sa Dalawa?" o kaya naman "It's Not You, It's Me...Ano ba Talaga Kuya!"

IMO its fair naman wla ka munang pinili sa kanila, allowing time to really tell what are your top priorities today. Di sa pagyayabang I already experienced both roles as yong pinaka mabait na guy sa balat ng mundo then twisted my principles after (bad boy) after someone broke my heart. Kaya lng honestly, d ako masaya kasi dami nagbago sa akin at di ko halos makita ang totoong ako and I feel useless. Lesson learned, Time may not heal everything but Time will guide your decisions at the right time. Wag muna ask when is the right time, malalaman mo lng kung yon na di mo inexpect.

Tingin ko lng @appleblossomgirl baka nga di mo alam ang priorities mo today kaya nahirapan ka mag decide. Enjoy muna moments sa life mo kung ano darating, ika nga take calculated risk and go with the flow kung ano magpapasaya sau.

Pero curios ako, pwd mo hindi sagutin - what it is with the 1st guy that you're so attach with him? Prang old skul na tanong ng  Pop Cola na 'bakit mo xa love?' Is it always tama ang timpla or mas challenging kasi may extra effot na pra makuha ang tamang timpla? 

Sir @karaso ... Nice point of view...

Sana nga lang masagot ni ms. @appleblossomgirl ...
 

Ano nga kaya ang lihim ni guy # 1...
 

[Heathcliff]

If you're selfish enough to think only but yourself then you'll probably opt for the person who loves you...but that would be miserable for you until you find that one person whom you believe is worth the chase and could make you happy because you love him/her deeply and truly..But isnt it unfair for the one who loves you devotedly?

There really is no appropriate answer to this question. Either of the two choices is painfully difficult.

True love is unconditional...and somehow it doesnt exist in this too complicated modern existence. You give love...you crave love in return. Who would have risked their hearts to love someone so deeply without even thinking of being loved in return and in full satisfaction? Nobody. Because everybody needs love...no single person is brav enough to say "okay lang...this is enough" then wouldn't flinch of the pain of being ignored and unloved....that's quite a hallucination. And even if you try hard not to be foolishly needy of the attention and affection ....for how long?

There will come a time that you will just come into realization that it is not what you really wanted..
.and all pent up emotions will burst and it will leave you...emotionally barren and feeling useless.

Self pity? Low self esteem.. Im afraid this is the unhappy bottomline for those who,unfortunately...been through this kind of experience.

Love ..but be sure to know the difference between loving in reality and fooling with your hallucination...you can have your fill of emotional and physical satisfaction...but for how long...?

I guess...the answer would be ...for as long as you believe that you are still satisfied well enough...but then...satisfaction depends....on how much is considered enough.

...complicated diba?

Bad.....bad...love.

[appleblossomgirl]

just in time din na nabuksan ko ang pt.. medyo matagal din un last na nag online ako e.. thanks sa mga insights ninyo.. it made me realize a lot of things, pero un nga, in the end it will still be my decision.. ok.. i didnt choose any, i decided to be just by myself.. pero... si guy 1 pa rin ang hinahanap hanap ko... kahit na me "kalandian" ako (try ko i ost ito sa kwentong malandi, haha!)  basta si guy1 ang hinahanap hanap ng puso ko. Xa un tipong lalaking maalam sa bahay pero me pagka strikto. ipinaglalaba ako, ipinagluluto, ipinagmamaneho, ipinagliliis ng bahay... mga bagay na di mo maiisip na gagawin ng mga kalahi nya.. matapang ang personality nya, untipong di mo mkikitang iiyak... pero umiyak xa nun nagpaalam ako sa knya.. ano pa ba ang nagustuhan ko sa knya?  malaki, as in malaki... hahahaha!!!! 
pero na mi miss ko xa.. kahit me mga times na di kami nagkakaunawaan.. gang ngaun naman may communication pa kami.. ewan ko lng if magkakaron kami ng second chance...

[Heathcliff]

Hahaha! Sis Apple...


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